Pokhara, 17 december

Dear readers,

since the last overly depressing news you got from me I am back on track. There were a few bumps in the road, but hey, it always gets better. It's only then when you are back in the sun that you see how brief and unsignificant the rainstorm was.

So I'll be back home soon! I'm looking forward to seeing my loved ones in Belgium.

The messages some of you sent me in reply to the last blog I posted were overwhelming and gave me such a nice warm fuzzy feeling inside... I am not alone, I am loved, and life is pretty damn beautiful :)

Namaste and godspeed!

Tinie xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Pokhara, 9 december

Dear readers

haven't really written anything the last couple of days. I feel like crap today so I thought this was the perfect moment for some sharing. :) I'm hungry and uncapable of eating anything, the menu doesn't inspire me one bit. I'm sad and angry and frustrated and so alone. Don't feel like talking to any of the usual suspects. Are they really friends? Or just characters in this random travel story, there to stir up demons inside of me I didn't even know I had, or I thought I beat decades ago.... Well the demons are still there and I am so ****ing tired of having to fight them. And the characters in this movie, as beautiful and interesting they may be, they seem so out of reach and surreal. Was I writing this is my home? That I have my homies here? I don't relate anymore. I am like a dreamer, uncapable of grasping what is going on, and at the same time too overly selfconscious to let go and just enjoy the ride. I am trying so hard to make any sense out of it, to see where it is all leading to, to understand what it all means. I find myself crying my eyes out for the same old reasons, for wounds that have been inflicted long before I left on this trip, wounds I thought were healed or atleast healing. Lost in Wonderland. I wish I could just get the hell out of here and have some peace. Find some true companionship, a pair of arms to hold me and comfort me, the ease of a mutual understanding that has no need for big words and gestures.

Anyway, you catch my drift.

What is probably really throwing me off is the approaching return to Belgium, and all the questions that arise with that... Lord have mercy.

Godspeed and big hugs

Tinie xox

Chitwan, 4 december

Bus terminal in Pokhara, I'm leaving to Chitwan!

Entrance Chitwan national park

First encouter with wild rhinoceros

Shower!

On an elephant ride through the jungle

Elephant docking station :)

Magic sunset

Wild rhino!

Basecamp Pokhara, 27 november

The daily 5 pm show, time after time breathtakingly beautiful

Sunset at Sarangkot

Sunrise at Sarangkot: Anapurna view

Here comes the sun!

....insane views

Lemon tree at Himalayan View guesthouse, Sarangkot

Inspiring paragliding activity above Pokhara, seen from Sarangkot

Riding down with the paraglider jeep

I wanna fly too!



Next day: I'm gonna fly!!

Here I come!!!

Whoah! I'm flying!

Pilot Anatolii

Fewa lake, seen as a bird!

Begnas Lake

Andre in Begnas lake

Singing at the Silk Road restaurant

My Russian neighbour and friend, Naistja 

Tibo, Corinne, André, Jessy, Naistja, stranger who's name I forgot

Hey dear readers,

I am as great as ever, Pokhara keeps growing on me more and more so it doesn't seem I'm going anywhere. Love this place. I will go up to the countryside soon, Kalei suggested to go together so we'll be leaving tomorrow or something... we'll see. We are reluctant to let go of the room! Beds at the Lonely View are high in demand. Silly to get so attached to a place, but that's what home is all about right?

I think I am officially done travelling. Bardia is still on the table, but as long as I don't get bored here I'm content to be exactly where I am and enjoy the wonderful views, people and little surprises that are so abundant here. There might also be another factor playing, but i'm still working that one out.
Either way, the travelexperience has been perfect, I got out of it what I needed. I am getting ready now for the next challenge, being either coming back to Belgium and see how it works out, or travelling on to India and see how it works out. I know, tough choice. The necessity of an income of some sort is to be taken into account, obviously. Scary but exhilirating alternatives beckoning... I met so many people who just keep travelling and make money as a painter, singer, musician, tarot reader, masseur, jewelry artist, fire spinner, dancer, you name it!! Now it's entirely up to me what I want to do. Everything is possible.

What to do!

I am very curious to see where the next steps will lead me!


Godspeed to you, you perfect beautiful being!!!! muah xoxoxoxox

Homebase Pokhara, 19 november

Dear readers,

some images to sketch where I am right now. I am having such a great vacation here!!

And good news: My brothers baby Max was born and I am the godmother! So good times, and they keep on rolling.... Godspeed everybody! xoxox 

Kalei, my best friend around here

view from our place

view from our place

view from our place

our pets

I swear the dog came into the pic after I asked him to join us... he went straight to the center of the action :)
From left to right: Paki, Kalei, Genia, Aurelia, Bede, Moi, Doggie, Umar

our place!

Singing at All That Jazz

Guillaume and Genia, wASTED :)

Jessy and I



Peggy and I